August 17, 2014 at 10:12pm
I can’t wait for the semester to grow around me and gobble me up with deadlines. I can’t wait till my table is filled with readings I can’t finish. I need to do 3 papers each week just to be busy. It sucks that the sem is just starting. This is not sarcasm at its best. It’s my brain at its worst. I need to be busy so I can get you off my head.
July 13, 2014 at 12:38am
Honestly, I am in the stage where I still can’t put into words why I love you. I can’t make a speech about why I kissed you that night, or what I felt when you said yes, or whenever we’re together.
I can try right now.
But it won’t do you justice. Some might say that that is what love is supposed to do to you. You should be speechless. I beg to differ. You being speechless is a product of ignorance. You are not overwhelmed everytime to be speechless. I still don’t know a lot of things about you. Shallow things are no problem. The things I want to know are those that will define what, when, where, why and who you are to me.
Maybe when I see you do stuff. When I will be able to observe you from a distance, then closer. then with you. Maybe when I see you dance, when I see your grace. When I see you move fluidly with the notes. Maybe when we spend a weekend together. Seeing you doing stuff that I have never thought you’d be able to do. It will be a long process, and I hope we find the time.
Breathe in, breathe out .
Stop polluting your mind
If you feel like you are going to shout,
Just hug the first thing that you find.
Or maybe you can punch the wall,
whatever makes the pain go another way
You really just need to give her a call,
I love you is all you have to say.
I could not ask for more.
I am so lucky to have the chance to walk by your side for as long as we can. I have nothing to ask for at this moment in my life. I do have everything. But it turns out, the phrase has two sides. You have given me what I’ve been waiting for, and I could not ask for more. Nothing, no more. I can’t possibly prove the nothing, but it sure feels like it. I may sound so selfish but I feel like I can’t pull of some surprise dinner out of nowhere, something random, something that is spontaneous. I have to bleed for every minute. I literally could not ask for anything else.
Anonymous said: What? Two different people? You're still stuck after all this time?
Apparently, it was just sleepiness. I’m no longer thinking about it.